Well look who fucking failed again.

What does this make like relapse 8 or some shit like that? 8 Days all by my self. I wasn't occupied by going somewhere else or family or work. Nope I was all alone and went 8 days. And that's gone now. My free April is gone....April is gone.

I don't give a who you are, how many days you have gone and how helpful you think you are ; ANY Edging is bad. ANY edging will lead to relapse.

Edging = Failure

Funny how you think "oh this is great look how I've held back for 2 da-" bullshit. bullshit. bullshit. You think that now but you have set fire to a very short fuse.

Oh and here comes the thicker than a stuffed Oreo head fog YEP! ; Oh there is the thousand yard stare - been missing that; Oh feeling like shit not wanting to do anything / ignoring women - Damn my fav.

I feel like a complete waste of a human life FUCK ME

Can someone PLEASE offer some type of advice I haven't already though of. I've tried Everything....literally everything I can think of and I have read....