Alright after weeks of lurking I've finally created an account on reddit and have decided to speak my mind. So I already apologize for any missing formalities that are normal that I may not know yet.

So my story begins as an innocent 6th grader in the shower who just wanted to get 'really clean'. No I didn't understand sex, masturbation, erections, or anything related to sexuality really - other than I knew that I liked being around a few nice girls at school. That shower turned into somehow a few strokes (M)...that lead to climax and finishing. (O). (Masturbation, then orgasm / ejaculation. Although not known to me at the time)

7 consecutive years after that incident here I am writing this post after a 7 day streak that resulted in relapse 7 for me. (Lotta' 7's in there hopefully not confusing)

I've been trying to quit since oh geez 2 YEARS AGO! And with very limited success. January I eliminated Porn from my life COMPLETELY with web and router filters blocking everything. I also educated myself via all internet articles available about sex addiction; porn addiction; how your T' levels during every hour of the day affect basically how horny you can be; how substance from ejaculation will result in a physical spike in T' levels...Yeah everything.

I've only had really 1/2 of a Girlfriend (she only used me for a semester in High school for grades) Been on 2 dates in my life. Never fucking kissed a girl (on the lips/make-out)in my sad life. Never gotten sexual with a girl.........(yeah poke fun but it's true)

SO. Questions: 1.) If I was able to break my addiction to porn why not masturbation/ejaculation?? Why after reading so many success stories can't I keep up a streak?! 2.) Other than masturbation affecting my “””””Love”””” life any suggestions on my relationships (Probably Going to post relationship stuff over in r/relationships as well)

*I'm a 19 Year old Male in 1st year of College.

TL;DR: Been masturbating for 7 years. Threw out porn, but still addicted. Basically no sex life at all (Or girlfriends for that matter) Read all the motivational stories on stopping but still slip up every time. Could use some advice on what to do next.