Well I'm in bad shape, but I've been in worse. I had close to thirty days and I reset today because last night I gave into edging. I want to focus on all those days of success, learning the gifts of nofap life. I can already feel some of them diminishing. I learned two of my strongest triggers are: 1) Staying up late and being online. And 2) Taking peeks at nsfw material.

I have to take triggers very seriously in order to stay vigilant! I need to take steps to back out of the trigger situations before they escalate. Working this 100% is much easier than at 99%.

I also never want to forget the feelings I had after looking at myself in the mirror. That was a feeling I had forgotten about and I never want to relive. I just didn't like the person I saw looking back at me. In the past thirty days of nofap, I never felt like that. In my active PMO addiction that was a daily occurrence.

Honestly, my motivation is not where I want it to be. Even after resetting after edging last night I STILL HAVE BEEN PEEKING! I might have to just commit to dramatically limiting my time online to only 10 -15 minutes every few hours, and only to do productive stuff like emails and quick searches.

I'm feeling defeated now but I still know for certain that I want a PMO free brain and life. Strength.