I blew my 53 day streak to a dirty picture and then did it again the next day without even a second thought. I won't lie to you, it was relief. But not the everlasting and satisfying relief that we always think it will be. It left me only wanting more and more and more just like it always had. It is now MUCH less of a relief and MUCH more of a burden that I carry every day since I reintroduced myself to MO. Ween yourself off of it. We binge and go crazy because of our self-induced deprivation, but it only throws us right back to the start. Fight it. Be strong. Force yourself to see how empty the promises of release are. How utterly and blatantly false the offerings of gratification will always be. Be a man. It's hard. It's unbelievably hard. But each and every success builds the foundation for a new beginning no matter where you are in your fight. Open your eyes and remember why we do this; Why we put ourselves through such trial and tribulation. We can do this no matter how hard we think it is. We just have to want to succeed more than we want to breathe. Only then can we truly find our resolution.