Hello there my fellow fapstronauts.

A few weeks ago, coming across YourBrainOnPorn.com and watching their YouTube video as well, has helped me understand, on a whole new level, what P has been doing to my brain and mind, and how it actually is very likely to prevent me from having sex even if I get the chance (I never had sex). Upon realizing this and what meaning it has, I realized that these empty gratifications are not something I want to continue doing, especially not for the price of losing any sort of real sexual experience (with an ACTUAL PARTNER/HUMAN BEING) together with a meaningful relationship.

It's been 17 days since I last PMO'ed and things already seem better. I often wake up with MW, and I have started feeling more attraction to real girls. I rarely have thoughts about P, even though I'm at home a lot of the time. I spend my time doing what I like, and didn't have any particularly strong urges for PMO so far. It just almost never enters my mind to begin with, and if it does I just don't think about it for more than a few seconds and there it ends.

Anyways, since it hasn't been too tough for me to abstain from MO and PMO (it's worth noting I'm used to orgasm with P stimulation), I tried the following today:

I was lying in bed and started stroking my penis very lightly (just 1 finger), with very little force and friction. Within 15 seconds or so I had a pretty solid erection. I then continued the stroking and sustained a decent erection for about 10 minutes. All this with zero P thoughts or any fantasies at all. Just focusing on the sensation in my penis. This made the light stroking feel very pleasant. While the temptation was there it was pretty weak. Maybe it's just my will power but I definitely didn't feel like I was about to grab my penis and start jacking off. It was all very controlled. I did have some pre-cum come out, which I'm not sure how I feel about. (Guess this got me pleasured and stimulated to some extent).

I was always very sensitive to touching and could get off with regular P and I actually despise hardcore, and mostly liked better the P that seemed more sensual and slow.

Does this mean I am already making progress, and that the desensitization has started wearing off, or perhaps it wasn't very strong to begin with? Do you think I should keep doing this or it's too early? If so how often and in what way? Thank you for reading through, let me know what you think.