I was doing good but I folded yesterday, I ended up jerking the chicken twice like a dirty bastard and oh the guilt just feels terrible and you have no choice but to carry it no matter how positive you try to think day 0 is usually the worst and to cope with negative feelings I ended up treating myself with some sugar like cake and cookies and that’s obviously okay to you know treat yourself to make yourself feel better but gashhh dang it you see how porn and masturbating leads to more bs like I didn’t need that sugar and I could’ve went without it but man it helped me feel better a tiny bit but now I gotta deal with the fact I just had some sweets. Day 0 sucks. Back on the wagon.

PS: question— sex doesn’t count as fap right ?