Well I did it! I’m gonna split my story in 3 chapters : before, during the reboot and after. Excuse any grammatical mistakes, because I’m not a native speaker. But before telling my story here’s what motivated me the most to finish this challenge:

• Porn induced ED – this shit fucking destroyed me
• NoFap subreddit – you guys are amazing, if it wasn’t this community I wouldn’t be able to accomplish anything. I used to read Yourbrainonporn.com a lot but that site wasn’t enough , it didn’t gave me the sense of community that I needed, it just gave me the information
• The movie Shame (2011) – I recommend for all of you to watch it . It’s a sad story about a guy who is a porn and a sex addict. It helped me to understand my addiction better

1. Before

I’m 23 years old guy and I was a classic case of porn addict, I’ve experienced almost anything that this addiction can offer. Everything started in early age, I started looking at porn maybe at age 13-14 , maybe 2 years after I discovered masturbation. At first there was porn magazines and the porn channel on the cable tv that started airing porn at 00:00 am. I waited so eagerly for that hour to see naked girls, It was so arousing and unusual for me that I couldn’t last even 10 minutes watching porn without cumming. Back then I watched porn rarely and wasn’t addicted, so I actually love that times and I saved only good memories from them. My addiction started around age 16-17. I discovered the wonders of the high speed internet connection. I started to watch porn and cum almost every day. Most of the time I used amateur porn, I don’t know but I’ve always liked that porn and I disliked the mainstream genre at first. After a while amateur porn wasn’t enough for me and I started watching hardcore porn, at first I hated anal sex, I thought that it’s very gay to watch this shit and my friends thought the same way. Maybe a year after that the classic hardcore porn wasn’t enough for me to cum buckets- then I started watching a lot of anal porn scenes to get aroused , suddenly my friends and the other people around changed their mind and they started to love anal sex (that’s just my observation but I think porn is responsible for this shit). Then after a year probably I hit the bottom – I started to watch transsexual porn only sometimes, because the normal porn just wasn’t enough to arouse me. I’ve never got caught jacking off , although I took major risks – I watched porn and masturbated in my room with my older brother while he was sleeping, I even used my rommates laptops to watch porn and masturbate while my PC was broken, one time one of them almost caught me. I even masturbated in the bathroom where I work. I just want to forget these days, I was so miserable.

Overall porn destroyed my social life, my porn watching sessions sometimes lasted 2 hours. My biggest trigger was BOREDOM. Never underestimate boredom, you should understand that your libido is not the reason for porn addiction. In most of the cases it’s boredom or loneliness. Fighting boredom helped me fight porn addiction. I’m not going to describe how much porn addiction influenced my life, all of you reading this are probably addicts and you know it.

2. During the reboot

I started at a very busy week and that helped me a lot, I didn’t have enough free time even to think about fapping. It’s not a lie that the first two weeks are the hardest. If you fail before day 14 it’ll be not easy to start again. Actually I planned to do only 30 days, because I was thinking one month will be enough. For Christ’s sake one month is not enough at all! Even 3 months could be not enough , it depends on how much you were hooked up on porn.

I should say it : it wasn’t hard mode. I had sex during the reboot 4 times, yeaah 4 fucking times :) It was never going to happen if I was still watching porn. I did it with a girl who is crazy about sex and she always was ready for me. Back in the time I could have fucked her million times, but for two years I only did it twice (and I couldn’t cum because of ED issues) and why – because I was an addict. After I stopped porn I had sex with her 4 times in a period of 30 days ! When the facts speak even Gods are silent.

Because of porn I used to have ED. Before I started NoFap I tried to have sex with the same girl and I couldn’t get it up at all, that was one of the main reason to start NoFap. This was fucking embarrassing , it destroyed me, it’s one of the worst things that can happen to a man. I wish that it won’t happen to you, but if you don’t stop porn it probably will.

The first 30 days I still had ED. At day 14 again I tried to have sex with the same girl – nothing happened, -because i was in a flatline period, the flatline period was around 2 weeks long. It was very depressing for me, but also very helpful in some ways. The urges start coming back after day 30.

After day 40 I finally did it, and I had sex with the girl, but there was still signs of ED. After that I had sexual contacts with her 3 times more, of which I managed to cum 2 times, so I had orgasms during the reboot – 3 times. She knew that I was a porn addict and that was very helpful. I recommend to not hide your addiction from your loved ones. They will help you.

I didn’t had a single wetdream during the reboot, I actually have never experienced that in my life. I guess it just happens to some people, but I’m not that type.

Now I don’t have ED, but still I’m not 100% sure in myself. I believe once you had ED it’s gonna take a long time to recover your manliness and to start to believe in yourself again.

As of the superpowers. I confirm that girls start noticing you more, it happened with me multiple times. Girls somehow feel that you don’t jack off and start approaching you more, but also you will start approaching them more too. I started seeing them as a human beings with which I just wanna interact and not just like sexual objects. Porn made me see girls mostly in a sexual way and when I felt that I don’t have chances with some girl I stopped interacting with her - that actually happened with most of them :D. When you treat a girl without seeing her only like sex toy– the girls fucking love it, they will start begging you for sex, not you – you will want sometimes just to be friends. You will start friendzoning girls even :D

I used to write on this board almost every ten days at the beginning, because I was seeing a lot of changes, after that I stopped because the changes stopped to be so noticeable, it became a lifestyle.

I managed to get over my ex crush, which I used to love a lot. She friendzoned me a long time ago, but thanks to NoFap I managed to cut all of my connections with her and I’m feeling happier because of it, you can read about it here

3. After

My goal is to be pornfree forever, so I’m going to start a counter on /r/pornfree which I plan to last forever. I’m still going to read NoFap and post here and If I need it I will start a counter here again, because this board is one of the best community in the web. Also I plan to masturbate with thoughts and imagination, at first I’m gonna do it once a week to see how will it play out. If it bothers me somehow I can stop it , but I think it will make me very horny. Too long time without orgasm makes you forget the pleasure somehow and you know - the appetite comes with eating :)

My next goal is to loose some weight, but that’s whole another story.

TL;DR I can’t summarize all of this in one sentence, so just read it all :)