I was doing pretty good till about a minute ago. I’ve always been a perfectionist, so just now while I was on SoundCloud listening to some of my old songs I kinda thought that maybe some of the songs had more risky or nsfw album covers like pictures. I wanted to check one song in particular to make sure it wasn’t any nudity on it. I clicked it and examined it because again me being a dumb perfectionist felt like I have to be super clean. The cover had a more risky picture of a girl but I didn’t see anything too crazy just her being heavily sexualized. I didn’t feel any urges because I’m not gonna give in to that, but I also feel kinda off cause while I know I wasn’t seeking that for pleasure, I still was seeking it out in someway (being that I wanted to make sure I didn’t see it).

Anyway this was kinda weird and threw me off a bit. I know it won’t matter in the long run and that no one’s streak is perfect but I just felt weird.