I’ve been watching porn since I was 11 or 12, but it doesn’t matter, there are too many things I could talk about on this post. I dont know if I’ll ever make it out because I got in a bad accident and got a brain injury in 2016 and I feel that permanently wired my brain like this. It definitely became an addiction after I got out of the hospital because I masturbated every day. I’ve been trying to quit since 2020, and I can’t go more than a week and that’s if I’m edging. Nobody around me understands, I lost my “highschool sweetheart” because of this, I’m trash at everything I do, especially any job I’ve had, I’ve never been more alone. I just don’t know what I can do anymore. I exercised every day in college, that doesn’t nothing for me. I got involved in church after my crash, and stopped going because it just drained me even more with how everyone expected me to be. I just want to die and be over with it.