So my journey goes back to 2022.

Basically in the end of 2022 I quit porn for good due to my PIED... or so I thought. I was fine for 8 months and regained my erections and was having bed shattering sex with my partner until I had started my job in June 2023 and one thing lead to another and I have been a frequent consumer of porn again.... my main issue is coming back to porn and deathgripping my cock with no lube... which has a bad effect for my erections.

Ever since then I've been trying to quit porn but it just doesn't work. Recently the effects of my porn consumtion started appearing again with weak erections... no matter how many times I swear off, install blockers, exercise, meditate, etc... something always leads me back to the screen.

I notice each night when I'm alone with my laptop or phone I end up searching for loose terms like 'fit girl' or 'swingers reddit memes' or 'chubby pregnant girl' or 'pawg memes' on google images and I deathgrip my cock.

My partner is understanding about it and even gifted me a fleshlight so I could be less tempted... but the mess it makes and cleaning up turned me off from it. We are still having regular sex but I keep losing my hardness in seconds if I'm not being stimulated with my hand or her insides.

Any advice would be sincerely appreciated... I'm lost and I just don't know anymore... this addiction is beating me.