Since my relapse ive been relapsing even more and more which after a relapse just now realy hurts. I also promised myself that i wont relapse on my birthday and failed that too. I think its because my friend said something about the job i wanted that i lost purpose in life. I also wanted to get a pr in the gym before my birthday, but played soccer instead.

My mind right now feels empty, nothing good and nothing bad. All i can think about now is how to outsmart my brain and get rid of this cursed addiction. For me its easier to motivate people then to motivate myself. I need to make a plan i think, a daily routine. Most optimal so i get no time for porn. Lets hope my brain wont be too lazy to do that.

Good luck yall, beat this addiction.