So I decided yesterday after I watched some porn and edged for about an hour that I needed to clean up my life.

I had a "date" with a guy I was with once before. I was contemplating going and we only ever communicate thru email. When I started this addiction back in 2013, I created a fake email account to keep my identity from being found out.

So I finally decided 10 years of this shit has to stop! So I decided to permanently delete that email address. I'm sure I'll still slip up from time to time, however that access is now gone and we it over a decade of emails from various people to have sex with.

I've started a new semester of school and going to try and keep myself busy with school work so that I'm not free for any other activities.

I've also decided that I'm not going to watch porn in the house. If I'm that desperate I'll go to the local adult bookstore to get my fix. Since that's several miles away my hope is that it'll give me time to pause and think about what I'm doing.

I've also started using the wellbeing function on my phone as well as set times to use the apps. So I only have an hour for Reddit and an hour for Facebook, etc. I can override it, but at least it gives me a few moments to really think about what I'm doing.

I realize that this is going to be an ongoing endeavor, and will definitely not be easy. I used to think why people with drug and alcohol addictions couldn't quit. Now I think I understand the intense cravings for something that really isn't good for you.

Not sure I'll be on here that much anymore. I'll check in from time to time, but I've gone from reading replies to my posts to looking at the profiles of those who replied and then seen that some of them have NSFW content on their profiles that makes me what to see what they have and then downward spiral from there.

TBH, some days I feel like what's the issue, until I remember that I've got PIED, and eventually it may get to the point that it won't be reversible. And I definitely don't want that!!

Hope everyone is having a good day and see you soon!!