I've been struggling on my own for about two years now trying to quit. I can get a decent way however I always relapse and I get worse than I was before trying to quit. I feel it destroying my relationship with my partner, I feel it ruining my social life and career. My emotions are the most uncontrollable they've ever been, I'm crying in the bathroom at work because I barely managed to catch myself. I'm only 20 yet I feel so hopeless. Some days I can get through then the next it's nonstop whenever I get a chance.

This is Day one of me owning up, checking in with people outside of myself, trying to keep myself accountable. I will get my mind back. I won't be a slave anymore.