so i was on a months long hiatus from NOS, did a tank last night though and the night before.

anyways, something was happening that’s never happened to me before. night one, i was having close eyed visuals, the more i did it, the more apparent it is what they were. typical, right? but i was watching a tv show and then all of the sudden i heard the characters on the show say something that directly corresponded with the close eyed visuals, i thought okay that’s just my brain doing pattern recognition nbd.

then yesterday, earlier in the day i was watching a different show, and i remember briefly having a thought about listening to “famous last words” by my chemical romance lol. anyways, later that night, i start watching music videos while i am hitting the NOS again. i’m getting the close-eyed visuals again, it’s different this time, but it’s becoming more and more clear. what do ya know! “famous last words” comes on and by the end of the song i can see with perfect clarity what the visual was and it perfectly aligned with the song. i thought, “fuck, maybe there is a god or something because how the fuck…”

and then i sobered up and chalked it up to pattern recognition again lol.

oh well, time to take some b-12 and maybe another months long break.