Been going through some mental stuff recently just feel like I am not where I want to be at 29 I work at a hardware store full time and wash dishes part time. I just bought a house. It’s a good thing but it’s been stressful with thinking about bills and being tied to it. I tend to turn to self medicating when I’m in a bad spot. Saw I can get nitrous about a month ago and prob have done a good 6 615g moo whips in that time. To me that is way too much and now I’m at the Point where I feel really depressed been having hives the last year too on top of everything and that’s been thought. Just everything kinda piling on the nitrous felt like an escape. Now I’m at the point where I feel like it’s the only time I can escape my head and that’s scary to me I think I need to stop all together before I get ahead of myself.