Im happy, shes happy, we are perfect together. We fall in love and spend our whole lives together. She completes me. And then my alarm clock takes her away forver every morning.

I dontvknow whats going on but its tearing me apart, these dreams are so vivid and emotional that they leave me broken every time i wake up. I dont even know who the girl in my dreams is, all i know is she doesnt exist. My heart is broken because she isnt real, i dont want to feel this way because its just a dream, but its like living a diferent life every time, in the dreams we fall in love and spend years together, and it actualy feels like a life time. Then its all gone. Then shes gone. And then im alone.

I am only 18 years old

This is breaking me

I need help, im not sure how much longer I can keep "living" every night and then losing it all once again with my alarm clock. Am I insane for also not wanting these dreams to stop because of how happy i am and how much love i feel from this "dream girl" (sometime the dreams get as far her becoming my wife) and how much i love(ed) her in these dreams?

Why is this happening?

Will i ever have what i have in theses dream in my real life. Does someone out there like her realy exist for me? How do i find her?

What should i do?