Not really a new player, but just starting to take the game more seriously.

I feel like I see a lot of missed opportunities on my end, but I’m slow to react to them for REALLY stupid reasons. “Gee, the camp behind that brush just flashed red. I should probably leave… but let me finish this minion wave of fir-Oh, hi 5 man team rushing me.. annnd.. I’m dead.”

I also feel like I have a decent grasp of what to do – but I let myself get drawn into bad decisions by others. Such as if we’re levels behind, or they’re 10 and we’re nine and somehow we get into a team fight. If I’m trying to soak a lane and everyone else is mid getting ready to brawl I find myself running there as fast as possible even though I know it’s a bad idea. Then I kick myself for allow myself to be pressured into something like that and tilt myself into oblivion.

That’s what’s so aggravating to me. I feel like in most cases I know the preferred course of action, but my bad instincts and adrenaline take over and I do the opposite knowing very well I could be punished badly, and usually am.

I just find myself on a massive losing streak lately and I’m starting to get really frustrated. I used to think I was better than most of my team mates, but I’m starting to think I’m exactly where I belong. This has been a very harsh realization for me considering I consistently have team mates with 10 deaths.

I try to be a good little ranged boy. I stand at max range, I stutter step in erratic patterns to make their skill shots more difficult, I run-run-run when they collapse on me and I don’t turn back around until they start to focus someone else.. but these little things are costing me games and it’s starting to spike my anxiety to the point where the game is more of a chore than fun.

How long did it take you guys to have your learned behaviors overtake your bad reactionary instincts? Admitted I’m on the lower end of the match count (around 150) but it’s really starting to fray my nerves...

TL;DR - I suck, but I know I suck. I think I probably know why I suck and how not to suck, but I keep sucking anyway because sucking is just my gut instinct. Help me not suck. Thanks.