Hey reddit. Here trying this again but with a little more effort. But I can't even say with any honestly exactly it is I want. So I'll share my situation, what I like and don't like in a person and a little about me. Guess that's a good enough place to start as any. Feel free to ask anything you're unsure about because this will probably be slightly incoherent lol. (Before you read on, don't message me about onlyfans. Do you, but I'm not interested)

-My situation: Recently separated from the worst kind of narcissist. Still legally married but it's situational as of now. Believe me, it's over. Put up with it for too long as it was. I've been alone in a marriage for years and I'm really just looking for intimacy. Friends with benefits, without benefits, doesn't matter. I wanna just be accepted for the hot mess I am and not who you want me to be. Someone to put in equal effort into making whatever we have work. But a little fun never hurt anyone lol. I'm learning to be me again and looking for the enjoyment I once got out of life. Just want some peace. I'm not looking to jump into another relationship, but I'm not opposed to the natural progression of things either. I really don't know what else to say here. -About me: 32M. 5'9". 130lbs. Kinda skinny, kinda muscular. I don't know lol. I have lots of tattoos and planning on a lot more. I'm pretty much a nerd in all forms. Comics, anime, horror, games, collectibles, tech, science. ADHD had had me hyperfocus on a lot so conversation shouldn't run out if we share interests lol. I ride motorcycle, listen to music, watch movies/TV, rock hunting and generally relax when I'm not working. I got my wanting to party out quite a while ago now. I like metal music as well as some EDM, but I'm picky about that. There's not a lot I care about with other people, meaning if you're chill, open minded and not an asshat then I'm pretty easygoing myself. But I'm passionate about the things that bother me. -What I'd like in you: Like stated above. Be chill, open minded and just see me for me. Shared interests and/or mutual attraction would be the goal here. Don't lie to me, make time for me (equal effort), and try to understand me if we disagree. Disagreements don't have to turn into fights. Age and body type don't matter much to me within reason. But you have to be at least 21. Don't care that 18 is legal, there's a lot of changing people do after that. I'd honestly prefer 25 but closer to my age if not older. No drugs, though 420 is fine. I don't even drink really. Smoking/vaping is cool. I vape as well. I just want someone I can have fun with, joke with, be super serious with, and listen to your side of all that as well.