I want to begin by saying that I have been studying Neville and the laws for 5 years now. I have had some successes(free iPhone) but nothing big. I do have aphantasia which is a phenomenon in which people are unable to visualize imagery so inner conversation, scripting, affirmations tend to work better for me. There is a YouTube coach Shelley Bullard who says she has aphantasia as well and uses "feeling it real"

I recently gave up on my SP as it's been 5 years with only hot and cold results plus SP is stationed in a faraway country and has been for 4 years plus there have been 3Ps too. I know circumstances don't matter but I grow tired of not manifesting it despite still wanting SP.

I want to stay in my current home but my landlord refused to renew my lease as they said family was going to move in and now I have 1 month to find something but I want to stay in my current home forever. I was notified early last month but I kept thinking I would turn it around somehow. I had a few sessions with different coaches on my SP but I never really got over the hump. I know desperation is bad but I do not want to move, I want to own my current house and no other places look good to me plus rents are up and most places go so quickly due to short supply. Looking for a new place is just making me so anxious and upset.

I know how all this sounds but I really thought something would happen by now. Now it feels like I need a miracle. I appreciate any responses and thanks for taking the time to read it.