Hey guys.

Note - I initially typed this as a response to a user comment in another post and it kept getting deleted. I've been having formatting issues with reddit and my response was a long drawn out one so I thought I would convert it into a post so it may actually help someone. I thank u/Gemsie_13 for his/her post which making me remember this incident in my life and I spent a good chunk reflecting on this period and what worked for me.

As you all know, autoimmune disorders come with the label that some of them are reversible and treatable but they mostly do not have a permanent cure.

In 2006, I developed Alopecia Areata at a time in my life where I was constantly plaguing myself with unhappy and intensely negative thoughts. I had a very bad and humiliating breakup then. My self esteem was really low. When bald patches began appearing, my first instinct was to hide it. I was very vain at that time (still am lol) and it affected the way I felt about myself and my appearance. My patches were pretty big and my hair is stark black so the white contrast of my scalp was obvious. It seemed every three months there was a new bald patch and they would spread.

I was told that it was not a condition that cannot really be cured and even if hair grows back , other clumps will fall. I was assured by three different doctors that hair will grow back (hence being reversible) but clumps will continue to fall out after they examined me. I definitely didn't listen to that. I had the belief that every condition can be reversed, that my body was healthy when it came to curing myself and at that time I firmly believed in Western medicine a lot without question(was still a teen then).

This was three years of my life. I initially was very embarrassed but then grew out of it. I showed up for all treatments and stopped thinking about it. I remember sitting in class and trying to hide my patches by rearranging my hair. But then I also realized that nobody around me cared and no one was thinking about my patches. So I loosened up. I showed up for treatments and hair grew back mostly because I believed I was young and healthy and my body heals fast. I was grateful that I had not developed Alopecia Universalis or Totalis where hair does not grow back, hence it was easier for me to believe that my hair will grow back quick and not continue to fall out despite what WebMd and others said.

Let me make it clear that while I believed medicine would help hair grow back in the patches, I did not believe it would cure the condition or stop the creation of new patches.

But how did I reverse it? Aka no further new bald patches developing? During the last two years of uni(2007-09), I developed a self concept that I was very beautiful and desirable. I know this may sound shallow but hear me out. At that time, I associated alopecia with my appearance and not my immune system health. Because I felt beautiful, I did not feel bad about my patches. I would see myself as someone very beautiful and one of my inner conversations would be of having beautiful raven black hair. Dramatic, but I was into Nora Roberts. This was a period of time I remember where I would go for walks in the park and tell myself that I was beautiful etc and people in my reality started saying those very same things to me. This was me affirming with conviction and truly living in the end but I didn't know it then.

Therefore I built up this image of myself with a head full of hair(I didn't even think of bald patches then). I completely ignored the idea of patches. My new self image was so strong that I actually didn't even remember I had bald patches the size of my palm before. I would live in this end even while at the trichologist's office with treatments going on. So while in 3d, I was still seeing visible patches, getting new ones after two years and continuing to apply topical ointments, I was imagining a total new look, one with lush hair in my imagination. (A side benefit to reading romance novels where you imagine yourself to be the lady on the cover, nobody judge me LOL).

I now know that my reality changed to conform to those beliefs as my face and body started changing into what I assumed them to be and this was just a change to fit my new self concept. I moved into a state or reality where I loved my appearance and bald patches was not a part of that. Hence it got eliminated.

I would like to tell anyone with autoimmune disorders that you may live with it for sometime, years for some people but it can go away. I know some of them such as Lupus are more severe but hey when we can be in a reality of total health, why not choose that reality? This period of my life was before I heard about affirmations or anything to do with Neville but I was very clearly living in my end with very strong imaginal thoughts and conversations with myself. Apart from this, I ignored 3d and was happy in my own inner world.

I would also like to point out that I was not consciously trying to manifest something. I now look back at my big manifestations and I was never trying. Even if I imagined and affirmed, I was not aware then that there was a process called conscious manifestation. And frankly, it was just me inhabiting a state just like a child does when they play. It wasn't fantasizing either but there was no pressure about checking 3d or ' when will it show up'. I need to apply this to areas where I need to build up my beliefs/concept of self and just inhabit those states and honestly just be.

Hope this helps.