Bakground info: 3 months since my discovery of Neville teachings, 2 since I joined this wonderful reddit comunity. A lot of reading, inconsistent practice

The problem as i see it: basically what i want to highlight now, in the light of my personal experience, is that sometime I dont see where the enemy is. Since the last few days, since I calmed my self from this hiperexcitement about the law, my manifestation, I understood that all the time I spent reading forums, even succes stories, other opinions and so called masters, trying to understand the process as rigourously I could, was nothing else then a mindgame of an unbeliever, a manifestation of a double minded man. I didnt increased my believe, i just prolonged the waiting game. Something is missing this is the subtle feeling which was driving me. Is to simple to be true, i have to know more, to be worthy of Neville s teaching etc.

Debate: what are your opinions about this situation? did you went through a similar stage of learning, acceptance?