Hello!

I'm bad at starting an intro that would grab others' attention, but here I go...

My name is Bam(nick) and I'm 32 M residing around Texas, mostly in the southern part. My occupation is a Security Guard for a Utility trailer facility and my shifts are mostly Grave shift. My day mostly consists of nap(due to night shifts) and just a simple routine of exercising, walking outdoors and gaming(this, I know will make people disappear from my post, but hopefully a few stuck around to continue reading my awful post 😆). I have been off and on with my keto diet, switching to just clean eating, but I will occasionally delve into my hard to break habit in eating alot. A discipline in my ghrelin is being worked on, so I do tend to try and find different ways to cook tasty meals with alternatives like cauliflower rice instead of white rice, eggs and cream cheese for pancakes, even mixing spinach and egg together for some healthy Flatbread quesodillas.

Personality: Okay, so this might be a bit hard for me to explain just because it's a weird topic to describe, in my opinion. I'm an introvert, I don't really go out of my way to make acquaintances as a normal person should just for not to bother other people to get to know me and my ways. I also feel like there are some connections I will not be able to click into since I'm way too old school in both traditional and progressiveness(egalitarian libertarian kind of thing). Just seems that nowadays, you have to be part of a hivemind and get on the echochamber wagon to repeat the same dialogue and opinions. Maybe it sounds pessimistic for me, but you know, I have that trait as well. I don't like to see the water half full in most cases until I'm proven wrong. I rather be proven wrong then having my expectations go through the roof and get shot down from cloud nine to the rockiest bottom you can hit. So yeah, I'm not much if a people person, but when my walls are dropped for certain people...well, have fun dealing with my dark satire and casual dad joke zings. Oh, and me laughing ridiculously at a simple joke that isn't suppose to be funny(a big Tim and Eric comedy fan).

Mentality: Well, it's not in a good place at the moment. I do crave for attention and communication, but I don't like to pesture about my wants or needs, unless I can provide it myself. I also have this abandonment issues, and it can delve me down into my passive overthinking process. Those self defeating moments I have is only to encourage myself to get better can be niche at times and all I can do is let it play out how it suppose to play out. In most cases where the worse case scenario would take place, I tend to swallow my pride and take the L. I have seen many people and myself included dig their own hole they can't climb themselves out just to be rash and head strong to solve things with brute force, even when you know it's too late to fix it. I just found that taking a minute to reflect, accept the outcome, and let it happen. 'Go with the Flow' isn't what I like to do, but it's necessary to not let that wound get gashed wider.

What am I looking for: Well, I'm actually looking for a dynamic partner that can compliment me. No, not to flatter me, but that can click with me on anything, even if the clicking sparks in a different direction. This means that I don't mind if the partner of mine has a different taste of music or genre...they can be that mature being where we can view other people's side and understand why they take that position. I actually want a person who is really comfortable in communicating in a difficult time or where it could tear other couples apart, but we can strive through it and can say we made it through with more knowledge about ourselves. It may be picky, but I just am tired of the simple answers, low effort attitude towards things or what we enjoy to do, and can't be open to things that are different from their ways. This can be from political content to the eating habits and diet. I just really want a partner to understand and have the nuance, not to proceed to attack others for the differences ideology they have. The other thing I'm looking for is commitment. Really, commitment and genuine interest towards the things we will go through to build together, even if it's something that we will have to do alone. We can strive in our level and it's not a bad thing. I like to take lead in things and make decisions, but that leadership isn't gonna work if I have a support nor would the decisions could be made without the insights from my support. Leadership isn't a one way street, especially if the companionship/relationship would ever exist. Trust and loyalty follows along with the commitment, and I'm a firm believer that there will be obstacles that can be terribly hard, buy in the end, there's a way to pass through it.

In all, I'm a weird do looking for a dynamic partner. Another way to say I'm actually looking for love. What a cheesy way to end this xD