Hello /r/needafriend. It's hard to find the optimist in me when the life I've lived is slowly wrecking me. Why are people so transient? Even I'm guilty of it, and it sucks. I'm kind of burned out on trying to find someone that I could genuinely connect with, but not just ANYONE, someone that will stick around and love me just as much as I love them. I'll admit it, I'm extremely hard to get close to. That goes for a lot of people though, everyone has their battle scars. I guess the only thing you can really do it keep trying until you somehow run into that person, right? Whether it be here, some random person at the grocery store, or the dude walking their dog outside your house when you're checking the mail. Maybe that's a little far-fetched though. Get it? Far-fetched, because the guy has a dog and the chances of you two connecting are far. Hahaha, I'm terrible.

Anyway, I would love to tell you about myself and not sound like an extremely boring person, but I am. Do I even have a saving grace? Probably not. I can try to make you laugh or give you support though, I'm good at that. I'm really tired and I probably shouldn't even be making a post right now, but fuck it. I'm super lonely and have terrible insomnia, I don't want to spend another night alone. I have tons of posts submitted to this sub that shouldn't be hard to find that say a LOT about me, so if you're interested in me at all that would be in your best interest to check out. Seriously, they are like several personalized essays just for you. :p I'll list a few things off about me though for those who don't want to bother:

• Pokemon Go is awesome guys. I would be more in love with it if the servers didn't let me down so much, but oh well. I missed out on so many pokegains today it broke my heart lol.

• I'm extremely affection towards people I like and get close to, I'm a really loving person.

• I have hardcore social anxiety and hate it so much. I love people but it's hard for me to do much in person. I just get really nervous about everything.

• I have never really been fond of hats before but I am totally into them now. Wanna know why? Here's a funny story... I usually cut my own hair, but when I did it this time I had my buzzer set to 3 and gave myself some sort of gnarly accidental anti-mohawk. Good stuff! So I buzzed it all off and ordered two hats. I miss my old hair but the hat look is growing on me.

• I like to cook a lot. I can annoy you to death by talking about it if you'd like.

• TeamValor is the best team and will reign supreme. Honestly though I don't give a shit what team you're on, it's all fun and games. ;)

• I like ASMR and audio recordings. I like voices a lot. Don't worry, I don't want to talk on the phone right away so don't let that scare you off. I've been lowkey working on a script for anxiety but lack the motivation to finish it.

• I am music lyric trash. Look at the titles of all of my posts, all quotes from songs. I have no shame. It usually represents how I'm feeling when I write these things up.

I'll just stop there... I ramble way too much. If you want to talk just PM me. If you use Skype or kik that would be great as I use those primarily, but if you have neither reddit PM is just dandy too. I honestly can't wait to hear from you, dear stranger. :)