I broke up with a Jewish guy two months ago

We were together for six months and he was always kind and caring. I'm a catholic and latina from texas. He's from east coast so I get used to his cold demeanor and directness lol. I was on a phone call that night with him talking about our days until I mentioned that I wanted to have white fence and gate that he said he's going to marry someone who's also a Jewish. So I told him maybe we should just break up and he cried, asked if he could still text me every three weeks and I said no cz I liked him more than just a friend. I deleted his number but two weeks later I dreamt of him so I decided to email him asking if he is okay and he said everything is okay there and mentioned, "feel free to email him if I want to exchange a life update and no need to be stranger". Which I agree with and since then I've been thinking about him again.

It feels like everytime I break up with someone the heartbreak is the loss of the life that i thought i was gonna have with him. I thought he was the one for real but if I ever get back with him why would it be different this time cz I do realized that I might ignored some of the red flags like he was always silent everytime I talked about life, marriage and family and i wasn't honest with what I needed when I was with him. I've been always a people's pleaser. I tend to neglect my own needs in order to do things for others. Like I don't think he ever really loved me, just his idea of me always being there for him.

Would you erase someone you loved to forget what they felt like?