I always forget that I found one of the best people I've had the pleasure of meeting here

Also one of the worst. I say one of instead of the worst because they've recently been surpassed!

Anyway my uh..nature. my love of thicc ladies. My desire to chase my dreams. All of this. Well. Dream chasing falls under nature, but I wanted a list of three otherwise it would of felt awkward. Uh. All of those leads me into all kinds of life altering stuff.

I am someone of... If you heard these weird sounds they'd trip you up too.

Plus with someone loudly watching American idol he runs in the background. And I need to shower. I might do that and revisit this but tbh I usually end up deleting my posts when I come back to them. They're always so long. But. To my surprise. Not. Not a surprise y'all have been telling me for years you like this shit 🤣🤣

I'm just being dramatic. So I can avoid....doing what I want to do for some reason.

Anyway. Friendship. I want to describe what it looks like for me, because I get so many in my inbox that truly does not understand what I'm about.

For me friends are my everything. I learned all my hard lessons in rapid succession. " Your connections matter more than anything else"

Yes life, damn. I didn't need to learn it 5 times in a row?

All the shit you leave unsaid? All the regrets? No thanks. I am now capable of telling me friends I love them. Progress. Yeahhhhh. I have had to grow. So much. Because I wanted. More. For me. So if I want more I have to be more. It's just. Common sense. You don't get to. Or definitely shouldn't drag circumstances or people to meet you at your level. You rise. I'm a riser. I stay hard and ready. And willing to ride to most of the challenges that come my way.

And now I've been asked this three times. Give or take this year. What I'm afraid of. I'm still working on the answer.

Because for every short coming. For everything I would normally back down over because of sheer fear, I have learned to face it.

Approaching women used to terrify me. Now? Doesn't.

Needles always terrified me. Has that stopped me from donating blood 21 times and counting?

Heights

Falling.

Losing friends.

Enforcing boundaries

Fear after fear.

Now I have to scrape and micro analyze what is there left for me to fear. What is there left for me to overcome. I imagine a lot. But. I can do it. I have done it.

Hmmm...

Well. This one is silly. And I don't even know if it's true or counts. But I'd hate to find someone I don't genuinely like and end up wasting perfectly good chicken on them.

I went long. Good. I had a lot to say today and didn't get to do it. Because these stupid pages just censor the hell out of me. 😬😬😬😬😬

Now my favorite part. Standards. I left my last post WIDE open and pretty much every type I didn't want to message me did. And made things. Awkward as all the fuck.

No teenagers. I'd almost go as far as to say " no people that haven't tested themselves in the world and are working on their growth"

But that's far too specific.

And.. I was about to write something dumb. So. I'll. Pass on that.

As I've started saying.

You being in Florida makes me big happy. Closer to central the better

Further away. Makes me sadder than 5 really sad puppies.

Like shit. Just thinking about it made my face drop damn it dropped harder. I know a euro Human is gonna be the first to reach out. You guys make me THE SADDEST 😭