Hey I'm Chris 20m from central Europe. I've had a pretty rough life so far because I don't fit into society well. I'm gay and my family is heavily christian and awful people. Then exactly a year ago I've found a delightful guy here on reddit. I wasn't even looking for love, quite the opposite. Despite that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. We started dating. He helped me through graduation, university, moving. He was always there. However he is from Germany so when we are together it was always online.

We are dead set on living our life together we are the perfect match. So about 5 months ago we've decided to spend Christmas together. We both have a bad relationship with our families so he found the place, I got the tickets...... I was supposed to leave today. But his friend let me know he got into a car accident.

Broken leg, ribs and the timing could not be worse. We had such a short window to meet each other and have some rest. Now it's all fucked. Obviously I'm upset and really fucking sad that the week of peace I've been looking forward to for so long is all ruined. But I'm worried about him even more.

He will get a blood transfusion today and a leg surgery in the next few days. He doesn't have any internal organ injuries. But he will probably be knocked out from the anesthetics for some time.

I am so lonely and in a really dark place. Starving for some comfort or tips on how to stay sane....or a friend like I don't even know. I cry constantly.