Keeping it short, will probably delete after, but I've been talking to a guy for a while now and we recently made it official as of a few weeks ago.

I love him a lot, he's helped me through some things and he's really patient with me and so nice, but I just have an issue with how nice sometimes.

I love being called a good girl, I love praise, but equally if not more so I enjoy being degraded and am quite a masochist, which he isn't really into and struggles with saying anything negative past maybe calling me a good slut.

I can get there occasionally though I do have to fake an orgasm a good chunk of the time, which I don't mind too much but would obviously prefer if I were able to more frequently.

He's somewhat against porn and very very against me talking to anyone else to cum, and I am trying very hard to oblige to both of those but it honestly leaves me feeling really on edge (pun intended) quite often.

Is it normal to feel like this? Can I settle for this long-term? Is it worth bringing it up to him when we're still pretty fresh into the official label? Because I'm honestly a little scared of possibly scaring him off with some of the things I'm into.