Starting back in 2019, I’ve always loved consuming porn via Reddit. The countless subreddits always gave countless opportunities to discover new kinks. At that time, and up until last year, I was always doing so via “anonymous browsing,” as opposed to “participating” in the action myself.

During that stretch of time, I at one point discovered r/TributeMe. I loved seeing all the women who wanted to be covered, and honestly kinda liked watching them as well.

At one point last year, I decided to actually do a tribute myself. I’d lost about 40 lbs earlier in the year, so I was definitely feeling myself. I began to wonder if people would find my body sexy on camera.

For one additional bit of context, my girlfriend of several years is adamantly against porn usage, and considers consuming it (and especially jerking off to it) cheating. So, she would not be a huge fan of me doing a cum tribute. Still, I fired up my burner, made a REDGifs account, and got to “work.” To my pleasant surprise, the tributee and a couple other people liked it. No one to my knowledge had ever seen my erect penis before, aside from her, so it was a bit of a leap of faith and a huge rush to know other people like it too.

Since that day, I’ve made and deleted accounts, feeling that I should pull away from this life. Maybe it’s just getting fatigued of the “can you tribute my wife” DMs (and feeling oddly like this thing I did for my own enjoyment is being hijacked by supporting other people’s kinks,) and at times it was second guessing whether I’m really doing the right thing with these tributes. Still, I keep on coming back.

My two favorite interactions are with two Redditors in particular. There a lovely woman who I keep in touch with still. We have traded nudes and short vids, and recently I finally decided to send her a tribute which she enjoyed greatly. Another is with someone who was actually extremely turned on by the fact that I was doing this behind my GF’s back, making me cum for her instead of my GF. After some reluctance because I thought it was too risky to tribute her while my GF was home, I ran a bath as an excuse to buy some alone time while my GF was at home, and I absolutely unloaded on my second screen for her. She loved that I was cheating on my GF with her in a way. I deeply regret blocking off this person/deleting that contact because of guilt, and I think about this interaction constantly and have honestly formed a new cheating kink due to it. I would never have actually thought about it, but the combination of this experience along with a steady decline in the frequency of sexual activity with my GF have made it so I would almost consider it.

I always kinda wish that those scam DMs I get on IG were real. I look up an r4r forum for my city all the time, and haven’t taken the leap to DM someone or post, myself, but the idea of it drives me absolutely insane. I’ve even seen people post on Breedingr4r; I mean that is a very easy way to mess up your life and it’s wrong to bring a child into this world with no plan, but the act would be INCREDIBLY fun.

So, that’s about it. After ample “hand wringing” about the whole thing, I’ve decided that this is a secret I greatly, greatly enjoy. I think cum tributes are probably the maximum extent of this secret, and I will enjoy the cheating fantasy as something I will take to my grave.