I'm engaged to a woman, she's great and I love her deeply. Things are great between us and she and I have been together for 3 years.

I've been with a guys in the past, but they were all one night stands or flings, I've solely been in relationships with women..

I work out with this guy "J," who is about 10 years younger than me. J has told me he's bisexual and he's very hot and fit. He's really flirtatious with me and it takes a lot of self control to not accept his advances. He sexts me a lot and he's sent me pics of his dick and videos of him jerking off and moaning my name.

From time to time he'll invite me to his place after a workout. I've made a lot of excuses because I know if I go to his house I'll fuck him.

Last night he and I were working out - The gym was pretty empty, and after the workout he asked me to shower with him. Something came over me, so I joined him. We were just touching each other under the warm shower when he started making out with me. He took my hands and had me feel his huge cock, and he told to kiss it, so I did, and next thing I was giving him a blowjob.

After we were done showering he asked me to come home with him, so I followed him home and he took me right to his bedroom, just some more making out and he told me to go down on him again, so I obliged. It felt validating that I made him cum twice. As I was getting up to leave, he went down on me, and told me "we'll continue this later," to which I said "yes."

I hate that I cheated on my fiancé but I've been craving dick for so long. It's been so long since I last had dick, and I know I'll fuck J soon. I'm going to let him have his way with me. I want him so bad.