She was the first girl I ever dated. And thirty years later we hooked up again for a few years. But there was so much off the hinge about it...needy, clingy, crazy, just FAR too much for what I wanted and could give. So I called it off and left. That was almost 10 years ago.

And even though I'm on to a different part of my life now, I think about fucking her every day. It wouldn't be fair to her at all, but there are days I have to talk myself out of getting in touch with her and asking if she just wants to hook up...asking if she'd just be down for a sexual relationship with nothing else, no other commitments.

I think about that all the time, and every time I have to talk myself down from that ledge.

But man. I want to so bad.