Went out with some friends last night. I was 16 days away from 1 year clean but I ended up with a line in my hand and I did it…. I’ve been pretty good at avoiding putting myself in situations with opportunities to do blow but I really expected myself to be able to resist if given the opportunity at this point. I really don’t think it will happen again but I’m just really disappointed. I was so excited to hit 1 year. My partner has been very supportive of me quitting and I don’t want to tell them because I don’t think it’ll happen again but I also don’t want to hide it from them…. I really let myself down and I wish I could fix it.

Edit: the support in this group from this post is so overwhelming and means the world to me! Thank you to each and every one of you! ❤️