I’ve been here a lot recently… more than I’d like to, but going through therapy I feel comfort in reading advices and others’ posts makes me feel less alone in this. However let’s cut to the chase:

Me and my NEX were NC for 1.5 years. Won’t go into details but we were “friends” (emotional affair kinda) while she was engaged. Eventually I was tired being her backup/being on the hook, so I blew up and called her things and called her a narcissist. Then I blocked her everywhere. Eventually for some reason I unblocked her, probably because I wanted an apology.

1.5 years later I got that apology after they separated with her husband. Telling me she is sorry for everything and she regrets picking him over me and she misses me. We started talking then she just casually mentioned “I’m such a huge narcissist”. Ofcourse due to lovebombing part 2 I completely glanced over this little sentence she dropped. Eventually it came up again and asked if she’s working on it or something. She said “no, I mean, I feel good, I can always make myself feel good and make my life good, why would I change this”. Now this has made me doubt that she’s changed as much as she told me. Eventually she fucked me over in the exact same way as 2 years ago.

Long story short I’ve gone NC (basically ghosted her out of the blue) once I fed up with her shit. Due to some reasons on one platform we still see each other’s profiles even though we’ve blocked each other. She always had a bio, it’s usually some cringe “kinky” stuff. When we blocked each other she changed it something that reflects how hurt she is and how people hate her for no reason. A few days later she changed it to a quote she saw or made up herself but basically it reflected that she loved that she is a narcissist.

It honestly boggles my mind. How can people be like “yeah I’m a narcissist and I’m proud”? You’re literally putting it out there for people to see that “yeah I’m an asshole and use people to make me feel better”. To be frank it not just boggles my mind, it makes me fucking angry.

I’m wondering: what’s there to gain from basically telling EVERYONE that you’re a narcissist and you don’t give a fuck? Or is this just a coping mechanism for her now because she lost her main supply (me)?