I never thought I'd be posting in one of these subreddits but I just realized this week that I am married to what has been explained to me as a covert narcissis. I think in the back of my head I always knew, I just didn't have the right terms for what has gone on in my relationship for the past 7.5 years.

The funny way that I came to this realization is due to social media, especially the AH/DP case. I went down the rabbit hole with this case and a lot of videos on my youtube feed were on the topic of narcissistic behaviors. Well, yesterday I came across many videos on being married to a narcissistic individual and what do you know! My husband fits every 👏🏾 single 👏🏾 descriptor 👏🏾.

I am trying to inform myself as much as possible now, so I did a lot more research last night and reached out for therapy for myself. Today, I told a trusted friend about my realization and she told me she always knew and was trying to help me realize slowly (I've known her less than a year). That hit hard. Someone who has only been around my husband in person a total of 3 times realized something I had missed for years. It's been hard not to fall into blaming myself or being down on myself for that one.

We have two children (one of which is not my husband's). The older child is with their dad currently so I am taking the little one with me across the state to get away for a while (I have family there).

Aside from getting myself therapy I'm trying to figure out my next steps. I'm a stay at home mom and haven't worked outside the home for 4 years, but I know that will need to change soon.

Thanks for listening