My now nex warned me about him/his personality SUPER early on, during this highly emotional night.

He was crying, not sure if fake, but basically told me along the lines of:

“I’m incapable of love”

“You are such a beautiful person you don’t want to be with me I swear”

“I have problems, I’m a damaged person...”

All this stuff. And I remember being so emotional too and just telling him “no it’s okay you aren’t! I love you the way you are! Stop saying all of that”

And it was like just such a dramatic scene ... I remember it like yesterday.

That must have been when he hooked me. Knowing I was falling for all that shit.

But it’s crazy because all those things are true. I wonder if like for this split moment he actually could understand what he was doing/about to do, and genuinely cared and wished it wasn’t me. But it’s almost like he couldn’t control it???