Damn this whole time I knew this man, I knew that there was red flags especially when it came to him boasting about things he's done and past relationships. I for one did not understand narcissistic behavior or gaslighting meant until I asked Gemini and it helped me realize that it wasn't me. Granted there was drugs involved and drinking involved but I knew for a fact that when I was selling the truth I was really telling the truth. I now accept the fact that he is an abuser. He put me down in so many different ways I actually started to believe him, in reality it's not me. I now realized that every time I got the backhand it mainly came from him being jealous over the fact that I can have friendships without him. It's also crazy how he constantly tells me that I've ruined his life when he surviving all right me on the other hand I'm getting there. It's crazy how he does not realize that he is the reason why I haven't gotten a job or been able to get back on my feet because of him he's always taking me just to smack me around just for his enjoyment just to tell me I'm worthless. Yet he comes back. What's crazy is that every time he leaves me he says that I could go do whatever I want he doesn't care. Then my dumbass believes him just to get trapped. Trust me that's not going on anymore cuz I left I left the city and I'm proud of myself because he doesn't know. Yeah I don't care if he sees this on Reddit, because at the end of the day i already told his ass but him being a narcissist like he is.... That's on him..