For those of you in the thick of it...you aren't crazy you are just in the abuse loop.

If you're outspoken and very brave like me. You have likely told your NEX exactly how horrible they are maybe even exposed them or cussed them out but because you are a kind and beautiful person that loves them...

You feel guilt for saying such mean but truthful things to them... then you express remorse and apologize but then they discard you becuase they know they are horrible and don't respect you just for being sorry when you haven't done anything wrong. then you think "no they are horrible and I stand on it!"

And then you start to question your sanity because you're going back and forth...blaming yourself blaming them AND going through dopamine hits and drops. You're body and brain are also trying to cope and deal with day to day life as well.

You will make it out. You aren't alone.