We broke up 5 months ago but we stopped talking 1 month ago...I still feel weak and shakey and very unstable. Like I could just burst into tears at any moment.

I'm unable to entertain any new men at the moment, the thought of it just sends me into an anxious spiral and I feel nauseous.

He had anger issues and even after I made him wait for Intimacy he discarded me two weeks after we did it. Just like I asked him not to... I kept saying " I'm wanting to wait to make sure you don't have the wrong intentions and you aren't using me for s ex" and that's just what he did...waited 7 months then he proceeded to flirt with other women in front of me a week after we broke up. Then get me drunk and abandon me for another woman. Then proceeded to call me jealous and insecure when I would call him out.

I've been strung out by his oxytocin over dose inducing Sex. Did anyone else's nex, give you so many orgasms that it was like evil and started to become unbearable/addicting?

I'm pouring myself into my work and self care/journaling. But now I'm completely mistrustful of everyone men... women and I've isolated myself socially. I'm a very accomplished charismatic woman and I've been feeling worthless for five months... he was very rich and successful and I'm just coming into my success and towards the end he made me feel like I was almost good enough for him but not quite... always changing the criteria. Straight up Mental abuse.

I hadn't cried over him in a month but today I wanted to see a picture of him and I looked up his social and he looks even better than the last time I saw him... which is so unfair... but I know the pendulum always swings back... I just want to be okay and back to fabulous carefree me again... I feel so weak. I don't want to be with him again ever as I don't want to suffer again like this. I just wish I never trusted him. I've never been this broken.