I want to scream. I want her to feel bad. I'm tearing myself up inside. We split a few days ago mainly because I put the pressure on and questioned her phone activities. Which turned into me being a delirious, meth head and she poked and prodded and literally struck me until I reacted. Now it looks like I'm the pshyco and it's been me all along. I just wish I could tell everyone the truth. I wish I knew why she doesn't feel bad about ANYTHING shes done. Has no regrets. I tried to go in better detail of the entire relationship but it's just so much I can't. At first I was fine. Because I know she's got shit in her phone. Idk what but there is something off and I tried every possible way to try to alleviate and understand and see wanted nothing to do with that. But when I suggested breaking up, she never wanted to do that either. But I was good at first. Happy to be done. But as the days go on and she will not reply to the couple messages I sent , it keeps driving me further into my self and I feel like I'm going to lose it. How do I get resolution, stuff off my chest? I feel like no matter what I say or do to clarify the extent of her lying and behavior is going to do any good whatsoever. She appears to be the sweetest person, Noone knows her as anything else. Except me. It's awful to have your girl punch you during an argument. Hover over my phone calls. Honestly just be a shell of someone's body. Doesn't want to do anything at all and doesn't. There's been so many times she'd say one thing, only to contradict it a few days later. Or complain about something so that I change, then turn around and get upset bc I'm doing whatever tf it was that she said she wanted me to. My brain hurts. My insides are ripping out. I honestly want to die. How can I get thru this....