I thought I was finally making it to the other side.. but nope here I am at work crying in the bathroom for the 5th time in 2. Hours. The trigger was when my 5 year old expressed that his dad is making everything different.

My ex is in the love bombing stage with his new supply and kids and my son has become a charm for him on the weekends, i recently switched it to every other weekend because I can see the distress in my son. He comes home sobbing, and I know it’s because my ex will tell him “mommy and daddy aren’t getting back together” “ you gotta be strong” ect. He does it to get a reaction out of him to look like a super dad infront of the new girl and it KILLS me. Last year my son was living in a two parent household and now he’s having his dad tell him that these two random little girls are his new sisters.. two months in. I’m just so Fucking tired of the mind fucking that he’s doing. I stopped having any emotion towards him. The one way he gets to me is through my son. And hearing my son express his feelings just broke my heart because I know non of this is fair to him.