It's been about a month since he actually moved out, a few months since I told him we were over.... I know it's going to be a long road of recovery and healing for me but I had started to feel like I was finding so much peace and making a good start on things.

Because of the circumstances that led to him finally leaving the house, which involved the police, he currently is still not allowed to contact me or come anywhere near the house (which was mine before we ever met btw, he just lived here whilst we were together & he does have somewhere else he can live).

Since it all kicked off the weekend that he left, his family keeps contacting me say how concerned they are about him - he's told them he's suicidal, that he's homeless and destitute, but not told them anything else. I know from when I tried to end things in the past that, if I enter into conversation, his family will try to persuade me to give him another go, so I just told them I couldn't talk about it because of the police involvement - I hadn't heard anything for a couple of weeks so thought they'd listened but today they've started again. I'm busy blocking their numbers & have also let the police officer who was dealing with me know (although I don't know if they're on shift or when they'll pick up the message)

I'm determined to stay strong & not go back or have any contact - but it's brought me emotionally back to where I was a few weeks ago & I'm a mess. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to. My friends have been really supportive but it's like, because it's been a while, I must be fine now & everyone has moved on. They also all have their own stuff going on & I don't want to be a burden. I just wanted to get this off my chest, hopefully with others who know what a rollercoaster this whole thing is.