I recently got the kids into counseling. I've been seeing one since the miscarriage & restraining order. All three of my kids are dealing with anxiety and/or depression. My oldest was sent home last school year for saying he was fed to hurt himself because it wasn't fair other kids have their dad & his doesn't have time for him. Now he says he's used to him being gone is suppressing any emotions. My middle is depressed &, he admitted that he's sad his dad is gone but doesn't want to talk to the counselor. My youngest who is a pre-teen just told she is having panic attacks. What's worse is she didn't even know what to call it or what she has been experiencing. Now, I've found that these terrors happen at night & explains her being unable to sleep alone or with anyone other than me. Their father has told the kids he wants them to come visit him overnight 8hrs away.

I'm overwhelmed by my own journey to healing and worried over all the kids. On top of him not paying a dime in child support, him taking my means of transportation & setting an old phone connect to my phone via mobile hotspot several times in violation of the restraining, I'm having nightmares again. I don't know what more to do.