I’m posting on here because I find this community to be extremely supportive and that support is something I am in desperate need of right now. My now ex boyfriend just ended things with me on Saturday. It’s now Friday of the following week and I want to talk to him but don’t know when it’s a good time.

Our break up went something like me crying the whole time and him shrugging and telling me that he’s bad at communicating but just needs time to himself for a while. We didn’t talk for long because he picked me up from my house. Broke up with my in my driveway and then we drove around silently for a little. Parked in my old elementary school parking lot while I cried and then he insisted on taking me home. I expressed to him that I wanted to talk more to find some peace in this mess but he didn’t want to.

Now it’s been about a week and I don’t know what to do. Half of me wants to call him and beg for him back while the other half never wants to see or speak to him again. We have been together for almost 4 years and I’m obviously sad we broke up but I just feel so spit with my emotions. One minute I can’t stand the thought of life without him and the next I want absolutely nothing to do with him. I’m also really mad that he broke up with me the week before we were supposed to go camping for his 21st birthday. I want to go still and since he said we could still stay friends I’m wondering if he’d b okay if I still went. I don’t know what to do. Do I call him this weekend or not? Also do I wish him a happy birthday?

I’m editing this post not even after an hour and I just wanna say thank you. Y’all don’t even know me but want the best for me and I appreciate it sooo much!