Recently found out a former NK of mine was arrested. It wasn’t a minor offense either. They have been going down a bad road for a couple of years, have dealt with mental health issues, and looking to the wrong crowd for the affection they didn’t get from their parents. I was their only nanny (live in) a little over a decade ago, but more like a big sister since their home life was very dysfunctional. When I left (I was being paid $200 a month...I know, I know), I felt so torn because the kids needed the stability and love I provided, but it was an all around awful situation. I remained close with one of the kiddos and had tried multiple times with the one reverently arrested but never could make contact or have any sort of meaningful conversation. I am just venting because I know y’all will get it. None of my friends would understand the responsibility and guilt I’m experiencing and the level of sadness I feel for this NK. I feel like I failed as a nanny.