I’m working overnights this weekend while my bosses are on vacation (Friday 7:30am-Monday 5:30pm). We had a really hard night tonight! 6M was so mad I made him turn the tv off, he was screaming, slamming his door, throwing things, and saying he hates me and I hate him and I’m the meanest nanny ever (kids’ words don’t hurt me but do make me wonder if I’m failing at my job). I kept carrying him back to bed feeling like a monster. I was calm but frustrated and I’m disappointed I didn’t use a kinder tone. I wanted to offer to support him but he couldn’t calm down long enough to hear it and finally exhausted himself and fell asleep.

My bosses are so good to me but I’m getting so worn down. 6M is getting support for his “busy brain” (attention disorder of some kind but no specific diagnosis that I’m aware of though he’s medicated) which is great but he needs so much more support. He’s a middle kid with very busy parents and he’s been acting out since day one because of it. I’ve been here for four years and it’s so disheartening and exhausting. I feel so bad for him and so frustrated that he just sees me as a wall between him and his parents.

Just needed to vent. The weekend overall went pretty well and I really had some lovely bonding opportunities with his siblings, I just wish it could have extended to him too. Wishing everyone an easy Monday ❤️