Advice is also welcomed but I'm mostly venting.

I have been so incredibly fortunate to have had my first two families as a nanny be wonderful people to work for. I've had some drama, but overall I've been treated as a professional, have been paid well, and have loved both with my whole heart.

I left my first NF over a year ago, as they wanted to do DC at about 3 years old. This family I hit my one year a few weeks ago, and on that same week they unexpectedly got into a spot at a good care center well ahead of planned.

I'm extatic for them! NK is going to thrive in a more social setting, and even if it's earlier than expected, we're all so happy it happened.

Now, tho, I'm have to find a new family. And since I've only done this twice before, I'm terrified. Especially with all the horror stories on here.

I work in a city, so lots of babies. But I know it'll be hard to find a family until about a month out. NK starts DC in two months, so I have time. But as the main income of my household, it's hard not to be worried and stressed. What if my luck breaks? What if I don't find a family in time and need to get a different job? I'm so proud of the profession I made for myself, I don't want to work at a gas station after seeing how I should be treated.

It's also just heartbreaking, because I expected another year or two with the family. I was going to move and time it with the end of their need for me, so this has been a big change. I also just hate change, and love where I am with them.

I know it's normal to worry... but I can't help being anxious about a new family. What if they're not as nice, or have strange rules? What if their house smells weird and I have to wear socks? I don't even like socks

To be clear, I have a solid contract and references and I know my worth and how to navigate a new family, and what red flags to look for. But it's still hard preparing myself to move on