26F, Never owned or used a toy in my life and I’m afraid I might be single forever if I do go out and purchase one.

It might be the best thing ever and because Ive lost interest in having a relationship my sex drive is close to nothing… I feel like if ever I get horny once every blue moon, i dont have to go out of my way to find a fwb and/or worry about getting a sti/std.

But I still feel shy about it? Does anyone have any tips on how to overcome this silly fear. I do believe it might be linked to some childhood trauma.

I just don’t know what to do or say sometimes during the deed - I dont watch porn but I had to to see how girls are ‘meant to be like’ when they’re having sex (obviously the more natural vids)

I feel so awkward with dirty talk because sometimes it’s not true of what theyre saying or when they ask me questions and I literally cant lie about it and I don’t know how to execute these sentences to keep the mood up and it’s so frustrating!! I want to be able to make things spicier for them but i feel so rigid and just seem like a mute 😭 worst part is that im super fit so i could go on for ages but because i dont want it to be awkwardly quiet, i usually end it at 20mins

I’ve spent a couple years being single and I think im better off just fucking myself -literally But why do i feel like it’s wrong to own a dildo i dont get it