Long, but interesting, relationship. I cheated for years, got caught, but we worked things out. Moved to an open relationship, but she has no interest in sex with others. While I've been with other women, wife doesn't like PIV stuff with or them touching my dick at all, so it's been mainly women who are pillow princess types. I love it, don't get my wrong... but it's been having an effect on me.

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I feel very emasculated and shunned, unworthy almost. I feel guilt over my past, so part of me thinks I deserve it. In addition to women, I've also been active with men recently, in a submissive way where I find myself drawn to dominant, endowed, aggressive men who I feel are the exact opposite of me.