I need to take a long brake from any sexual content because it has gotten to a point where it is detrimental to my health and it has affected my relationships. I saved photos that girls had sent after I paid them out of desperation and kept them for myself. I had my first kiss and lost my virginity at age 20, and my ex told me I couldn't perform well enough for her so she left me. I had an unhealthy obsession with girls wanting to tell me other guys were better than me because I have such low self-esteem. I usually masturbate 2/3 times a day and spend lots of money on porn/sexual content. I was treating real women poorly because of my unhealthy relationship with pornographic content. I made numerous Reddit accounts to play different characters (usually taken straight from porn I had watched) on sluttyconfessions. I hurt someone I really care about so now I'm deleting all the sexual content and associated accounts across many social media platforms and I'm trying to reset my brain. I don't want any DM's because I'm clearing all my chat logs.