Idk if i lied to myself or if it’s just grandiose thinking. I seem to have gotten myself into a long term relationship that maybe shouldn’t have started, due to extreme circumstances (moving back home and retriggered by family trauma). The girl was my rock, but now that i’ve moved away and she joined me & we’re still together, im over it. It’s almost like the relationship served a purpose and now i’m disgusted with myself for dragging someone along.

I definitely care about her but when i was stuck in that situation, i let her treat me poorly a fair amount of times. I kept the relationship but now all i can see are the times I let myself be disrespected and lost my self worth. I want to end it but I don’t know if it’s self sabotage, but i feel better alone. How did i just lose feelings like that?