Was in a long time on and off again that turned into a proposal. In march he put a ring on my finger in June he moved out. In between this time we got spun and he took pictures of himself naked and deep throating a dildo on posted pictures on Reddit. He says meth made him curious our what not. Since June he didn’t try to get back together. He was more focused on creating a fb page and liking body building chicks and following them (which I am not) but didn’t request me. Oct on his bday he shows up at my place drunk and stayed for 2 days but was just a drunk nothing special nothing intimate. Maybe for an hour our so I fell asleep on top of him but it was nothing as of now I blocked him and just don’t understand why he asked me to marry him. It’s like it’s always something coming out of left field that he and I would never be a calm happy couple that can grow old together. Always drama. It fucking sucks cuz I’m no spring chicken and I’m ready to settle down but I don’t think it’s ever gonna happen. I’m not gonna get that. And it’s okay I’ve come to accept the fact not all people get that. Shit the majority of the population may get it but people don’t stay together anymore. They really don’t. But I guess I can dream. Dreams become sweeter than reality. I guess that’s why some say they wish they didn’t wake up.